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oh plane...please crash please please please!!!

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 19:20:18 GMT

from nyc to atlanta...smelly crying baby...from atlanta to memphis hostel father and jittery 4 year old...AHHHH!!!

on top of it my cd player kicked the shit because the batteries decided they would rather explode than see my peace all the way to the end. fuck it.

mississippi was actually quite nice last night. hung out with the ex love of my life and her new boyfriend. he is super cool and we actually get along really well, how neat is that?

but anyhow, ms is looking ok. i will probably work this week for a little extra cash and stuff like that. have one funeral to go to and lots of grandmothers to see. after that it is only hattiesburg.

by the way, the elvis costello record i got in the saltavion army on 21st and 8th is damn fine for sure.

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 19:56:58 GMT

i almost cut all my hair off today...it's fuckin hot.

but for certain what i have to do is go eat dumplings...i have to.
i will think of you guys while i do.

err

low fi is cool i don't care what you people think. and the misfits were a good band.

im putting pictures up tonight...so hooray.

another stupid survey thingy

Sun, 24 Jul 2005 19:20:03 GMT

Body: LET'S BE HONEST NOW!

Last person who....

1. Slept in your bed:
ashley i think

2. Saw you cry:
maren

3. Made you cry:
pops

4. You went to the movies with:
merideth, she is my movie buddy

5. You went to the mall with:
nicole...of all people.

6. One thing you could take back:
we won't get into it.

Have You Ever...

1. Said "I Love You" and meant it:
yes

2. Got in in a fight with your pet:
not my pet

3. Been to California:
yes

4. Been to Mexico:
yes

5. Been to China:
Not yet

6. Been to Canada:
soon

7. Been to Europe:
nope

8. Danced naked:
of course

9. Wish you were the opposite sex:
maybe a few times.

1. Do you have a crush on someone:
te he

2. What book are you reading now:
ahhh no books now!! i finished my book what do i do?!

3. Worst feeling in the world:
related to last time i cryed i think

4. Future KIDS names:
cory and emma...why not?

5. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal:
no i prefer real animals

6. What's under your bed:
i have no idea...

7. Favorite sport to watch:
soccer or rugby

8. Location:
nyc for another week then home sweet home

9. Piercings/Tattoos:
im not hip

10. Do you drink:
ha...a little

11. What are you most scared of:
being attacked in my sleep by jason watson. he always gets me when i least expect it.

12. Where do you want to get married:
it really doesn't matter at all.

13. Who do you really hate:
the kid from that stupid screamo band

14. Do you have a job:
more or less

15. Do you like being around people:
fuck yea

16. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with
who hasn't?

17. Have you ever cried:
um, yeah

18. Are you lonely right now:
not at all

19. Song that's stuck in your head a lot:
sweet gene vincent

1. Been in love:
yes

2. Played strip poker:
not strip poker

3. Gotten beaten up:
yes

4. Done an all nighter:
a what?

5. Been on radio/tv:
maybe

6. Been in a mosh-pit:
i used to be all punk

7. Do you have any gay/lesbian friends:
sure do

8. Skinny dipped:
yes indeed

In the last 24 Hours have you...

1. Cried:
no

2. Bought something:
yes, tea

3. Gotten sick:
haha, only because i woke up

4. Sang:
oh man yes...but i don't remember

5. Been kissed:
don't know

6. Had sex:
no

7. Felt stupid:
i have no shame

8. Talked to an ex:
i wouldn't call her an ex

9. Missed someone:
oh my dear yes

10. Hugged someone:
hugs make the world go round

days on end forever

Sat, 23 Jul 2005 23:50:58 GMT

i have been wearing your blue jeans for days now, and i love them like a levis commercial. the only jeans that matter.

have a good one doll.

have you ever tried to sell sitar cd's? it is hard business baby.

my top ten

Thu, 21 Jul 2005 18:21:37 GMT

top ten things i liked about new york, in no particular order

1. the dumpling house i go to becoming "indie" ok in the eyes of the press after stumbled across it. hey, it makes me feel fun.

2. all the fun people i hung out with, and even the people i only hung out with once. seth was a lot of cool.

3. the good good. i love those guys.

4. playing handball with merideth in the wee hours of the morn.

5. the drugs...i know it's pety but i like 'em.

6. my job, lets not forget that.

7. learning who i don't want to be when i grow up, or you know, whenever i get where im going.

8. reading in the random parks. especially the one with all the crazy drug kids and "biker" couples in the east village. those crazy folks with their we just wanna be nice attitude. i should have spent more time with those generous kids.

9. coolest 4th of july ever.

10. getting skinny to the point of my friends going "wha?" haha, i love it. they had no idea. don't worry, im as healthy as i have ever been.

i guess thats my top ten for now. i still have two weeks so it might change a bit.

wanna trade? me neither

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 22:37:29 GMT

so i got a letter today and it made me want to listen to music i sent to portland once. lucky for me that wasn't such a problem. then i danced.

my own little version of a spastic punk rock belly dance, you know the type.

i also got a healthy dose of smiles today when i told a girl that soho wasn't really where she wanted to be anyway. i don't understand why she smiled so much but i was glad she stopped crying. so i had my own little smiles as well.

fell asleep in a hallway today. got some odd remarks from a guy trying to get to the bathroom. there is a lock on the door so i fixed it with a screw, now anybody can use it and they don't need a key. he was a little upset but it's broken now so i don't care.

before i used the screw to break the lock i used it to unlock the floor directory sign and change some of the letters to spell satan is over there. i don't think anyone knows it was me.

this is what you get for locking me out of work for 2 hours. nerds gone wild right?

two weeks left.

strangest thing ever

Sat, 16 Jul 2005 06:19:38 GMT

so i have one metro card right? it's unlimited for a month. why would i need more than one. i use it six or seven times a day and keep it in fron tof my credit card. used it to go uptwon tonight...when i go to get back on the subway to go home bam! insufficiant funds.... my first reaction is what the fuck, stupid machine read my card like i told you to. nope. so i examine the back of the card. you see, unlimited cards expire after a month, but regular cards take a full year. sure enough, the card pulled from my wallet expires one year from last month...odd? yes. unlimited on the way up, out of time and money on the way home. i don't quite know what to make of that. a little creeped the hell out for one damn thing. i mean, it was right there in front of my credit card as always. even to further the oddness, i didn't even remove my wallet from my pocket tonight because i found five bucks on the sidewalk and put it in my front pocket. lucky me. right. find five bucks? lose half a months worth of subway rides? i think i'll take the card next time god.

Sat, 16 Jul 2005 02:03:59 GMT

i finally talked to john today. we talked for over an hour. so many questions i had. actually was able to ask a few of them too. he seems ok, or at least like he will be ok. i can't wait to get back and see him though.

im glad he has finally stopped wanting anything to do with kat, i hate that it took this to make him see that she was the devil.

mostly we just talked about eing adults and having robots that we will ride and rule the world with. it will be fun, it was fun.

i understand his list of people he doesn't want to be around anymore and am very glad not to be on it. colby is though, so maybe don't expect john to be at our house so much anymore. im a little sad. always am when i have pals that don't get along. it's going to be a strange year.

he said he was moving into the dorms. i hope not bond. but it will be fun to have someplace to go between classes.

i just don't know what to say to him you know? the whole time i was talking to him i had to fight from having a shakey voice and from sounding too concerned. not that concerned is bad, i just felt like he has probably gotten more than enough concern from his family and i just wanted to be his friend.

im proud to say the p.a. came and went faster than two sentences. i really don't care about it. should i still be someone's friend when they made me so miserable for so long? i don't care what the answer is. im doin it. it doesn't matter how many of my other friends tell me im stupid or naive or say it's just going to happen again. so what if it does, it's only stuff.

it hit me while talking to him that my freind almost died. you can replace stuff.

either way, i am going to give john his usual attention, which compared to most people that get it is a lot. what can i say? i like the guy.

i made him tell me he would call me next time he was doing something like that, i hope he does. instead of pills i like to think we would have a grand adventure. but who knows?

i may never get my p.a. back, i might have to cover the stolen money out of my own pocket, i might have a few extra enemies in the comming year...but im gettin outta there soon anyway, and im totally takin you with me.

ba ba be be ba ba ba ba be be

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 01:38:53 GMT

as far as typical romantic comedies go, ewan mcgregor is in some of the strangest.

anyway

so maybe the world won't end in fire. it doesn't make much sense right? for god to make something that would. certainly not considering the fact that apparently god already knows everything, and not just the christian god either, all major gods with the exception of zeus. i don't think he knew the future. maybe that is why he got written off. whatever the case it makes more sense to me that we are just building up to peace. god knew we would make it and he knew it would take a long time so why not? why create a world when you know there will be nothing but sufforing and hell for almost all of it's inhabitants? just seems a little rude. so maybe we are all part of this grand scene of world peace, and when it happens everyone just wakes up in heaven. that would be nice. or maybe it's a mix. maybe we are just reincarnated so that our "energy" can keep trying to improve the world under different circumstances. but then i think...along these lines, if everyone gets into heaven anyway why even bother with the world? right?

lets just skip to the good stuff.

it's an argument for reincarnation for sure. if you get to heaven at the end of the million years of struggle to make peace on earth surely you would recall each and every past life through some divine revalation. in so doing, god wouldn't need to govern heaven at all. even full of people, it would still be people with the wisdon of a million lives over a million years and with people like that how could there possible be anything but peace?

that would be the only possible benifit of the world were any of this the actual case. it would serve only as prep school for the real prize awaiting. the ability to be a self governing society in heaven. wouldn't it be a fine thing if that were true? at least it would be in my opinion. i hope some of that made a lick of sense to anyone else out there.

so i like discussion if either one of you guys wants to "fight" about it.

ta da

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 22:10:01 GMT

well, i got offered a job today. full time on salary working for premier cru. shit yea. george even said i could start next aug. if i had to. it owuld rule i tell you. working for a record lable to pay my way through grad school sounds like a good deal to me. and even better, we got distribution for almost the whole catalog today including river drum, sitar masters, jon solo, brazil brazil, and even something i am not sure of... but either way, oh yea! with the new kenny flav presents wayne county comming out in sept they will be making some fat cash and may even be quite a gig to work for by next year. so be happy for the kid. because i think this shit is too damn cool.

anyway, celebration tonight for the distribution deal, i wish you guys could come it should be a crazy little party to say the least.

yea, im having a good day.

all the hooplah

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 06:51:23 GMT

lets say...great shit that detachment kit.

like rock in a blender. i loved it. nicole, you should have stayed. hockey night would have been fun to see together.

i think this delta girl has the hotts for me...you should fight her.

dancing has become more of a past time as of late so ashley we shall go dancing.
i won't take no.

eeeeeee

kinda sleepy a little drugged but overall feelin good.

don't worry ashley, i am about to call you for sure. i just need to brush the not so pearly whites and wash the uneven face.

i almost hit a girl tonight, but i thought she was a crazy with a knife. i promise. felt bad afterward, but no harm no foul right?

anyway. right as rain and full of imitation polish sausage. next time i pick where we eat...deal?

te he

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 05:32:30 GMT

well, im poor, a closet case, and im too nice to find love. oh well, at least i have a charming persona.

met someone from my past today...wooooooo...it was fun. in truth i hardly remember the girl and she knows a strange great deal about me. fun stuff, almost like i post a zine for all the kids in the delta to read.

anyhow. we are both up here on the same mission, escape mississippi for at least a while. though being a student at ole miss you would think she wanted to be as deep in the "heritage" as possible. or maybe thats just how i see it.

in any case, a charming young girl who shares mutual friends and intrests. knows my family and a little much about me for my taste. but i mean, what can i do about it. so we shall hang out.

haha, it was fun hearing from someone else that my dad would rather i be a different person. way to go dad, still my hero.

milkshakes all round!!!

haha, apparently im not the shakey dork of a highschool boy i once was. way to go growing up right?

"the sky is blue almost every day"

Sun, 10 Jul 2005 15:41:39 GMT

it is fun being perceptive, even if you don't know proper english and any correct way to put it into media.

i think morning is my new favorite time of day. breakfast is key. i never ate breakfast before this trip; i think i will from now on.

simon might move in the house and wouldn't that be fun? he always was the interesting one. i just hope he can pay rent.

nothin new. sorry. just wanted to interject my breakfast statement.

wooo

Sun, 10 Jul 2005 03:55:11 GMT

i stand by my claim that the onion throws a fine pre-movie party.

"whats the matter with my life anyway?"

Sat, 09 Jul 2005 19:11:17 GMT

thats the theme for today. and the answer is nothing at all.
i think i am quite a normal boy, and that is good...i think.

i was talking with carlton today and he was asking me if i had net any girls.
yes, i have, i find it easier to talk to girls most times.

anyway. his vision of women i think may be slightly skewed by the sluttiness of high society women. the type i really don't enjoy if for no other reason than their inability to have actual fun.

so sex is no big deal to carlton. don't get me wrong, it isn't a big deal to me either, but at the same time i really haven't cared about it in a while. needless to say he was a little shocked when i told him i didn't care for sex like i should and that i also wasn't religious. fun how some people are confused.

i find waking up next to someone i didn't have sex with just as, if not more rewarding. it totally makes life easier when you don't do it with everyone you meet within days of meeting them. and even easier when it is the actual last thing on your mind. some people just don't get it though.

anyhow, the soup dumplings at goodies are second to none so far. and aside from two or three other things and people i will miss the dumplings the most.
it is safe to say i will not feel comfortable eating dumplings or knowing girls from jersey for a while. but oh well.

maybe not comfortable is too strong. but everydumpling and jersey girl from now on will have quite a bit to live up to. im just sayin.

livejournal is fun because it is like am talking to people, but im not so i have free range to say whatever. not that i wouldn't tell either one of you anything you wanted to know. im just in that kind of mood latley.

hoop-lah

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 21:42:59 GMT

so i think ferris b's day off is the greatest coming of age movie. it makes me want a convertable for some reason. so that is why it is great.

i think if i had a convertable i could drive anywhere, but what i really need is a boat. a nice sail boat. well, not nice as in expensive or anything, just nice as in a sailboat that i would own and take care of. who needs a job when you have a boat? honestly i have no idea.

im looking forward to things to come. woo hoo!!

hope all is well kids, and if not be sure and tell me.

we can fix things. it is our only real occupation.

yet another selfless survey...

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 02:31:14 GMT

Last...

Kiss: te he
Hug: monday, i don't get enough hugs in the city for sure.
Cigarette: the big never
Good cry: late march...bad month
Library book checked out: some book on television law
Movie seen in a theatre: land of the dead
Cuss word uttered: shit i guess
Beverage drank: water
Food consumed: salty crakers
Phone call: nicole
TV show watched: daily show
Shoes worn: good ole comfey chucks
CD played: bright eyes...yea i know. but it was early
Item bought: beer, last night.
Annoyance: no roomates
Disappointment: other things you both know of
Soda drank: i drank a root beer about four months ago i guess
Ice cream eaten: vanilla
Time trippin on drugs?: haha, trippin on drugs
Time in love: jeez...i dunno really in love?
Shirt worn: one i found in dads closet

1 MINUTE AGO: this
1 HOUR AGO: reading skinny legs and all
1 DAY AGO: talking to my friend semalea

1. What do you most like about your body? nose
2. And least? stinky feet
3. How many fillings do you have? 1
4. Do you think you're good looking? i have to right?
5. Do other people tell you that you're good looking? someone has before, and he is my hero

--- FIRSTS ---

First Time working: farm, 13
First screen name: w4ska
First funeral: grandfather
First pet: pretty kitty, hey man, i was young and i'll name her what i want
First piercing: none of that for me
First Kiss: autumn east, fun name
First kiss that mattered: oh lord. that girl messed me up good
First Lust: cameron diez in the mask
First love: J.R.F. fun little semi italian girl from ole miss.
First enemy: ryan sheppard
First concert: some random hippie blues show i am sure.
First cd bought: smashing pumpkins
First car: cehvy blazer
First real boy/girlfriend: jessica
First swearword: i have no idea
First fist fight: see first enemy
First best friend: greg

--- Most recent... ---

Crush: shut up quiz
Pet peeve: no peeves, just trouble
School: usm...to the top
Job: paid job? espn
Lie: eeep...it's a biggie
Outfit you loved: today, i guess. i like these pants anyway
Fist fight: i got hit in the mouth at the aquabats, but it was hardly a fight
Best friend (name one!): hmmm, you know it's you

--- Favorite... ---

Color: too hard
Band: still the mountain goats
Song: jeff don't wear regular shoes...nofx
Class: tv 492
Pastime: guitar
Website: m90.org
Car: pj's
Animal: molly, but i don't know my dog yet
Excuse: no cahs
Person: jim
Family member: my sister she is the best one of us
Club/venue: the hippo
Food: fried dumplings
WHY did you do this survey?: too tired to go out
Who will take it as well?: i dunno
Who won't?: matt tatum

------------------GENERAL INFO----------------- *

Name On Birth Certificate: William Holmes Freiman Jr.
Nicknames: will, willy, holmes
Starsign: virgo
School: usm...
Location: franklin st
Email address:will_freiman@yahoo.com
Color of eyes: blue
Hair color: brown
Shoe Size: 11
Brothers/Sister: lora
You live with: jim and kyle

------------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------ *

Missed school because it was raining: yea, school got canceld cause of rain once, it was weird
Put a body part on fire for amusement: who hasn't?
Been in a car accident: not really
Been hurt emotionally: yes
Kept a secret from everyone: yeah
Had an imaginary friend: i had people that i thought were friends does that count?
Ever thought an animated character was hot: jessica rabbit, all the way
Been on stage: i was born for it
Been sarcastic: i was born for that too.

------------------FAVORITES------------------ *

Shampoo: the stuff at walmart that is only a dollar
Soap: same
Fav color/shade: i already said this question was too harrd
Summer/Winter: winter, then summer
Cartoon Characters: brenden small
Drink: beer...yea i know
Movie: i don't know, probably the dream warriors
Ice Cream: cookies and cream
Subject: fiction writing
Animal: dog
Girls name: emma
Boys name: you can say jackson a lot of ways

---------------WHAT ARE YOU---------------------- *

Eating: nothin
Drinking: nothing
Thinking: i want candy, buh buh bum buh buh
Talking to: allison from memphis

---------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------*

* Cried: nope
* Met someone new: yeah
* Cleaned your room: yes
* Drove a car: car?

Mon, 04 Jul 2005 15:15:33 GMT

well, called the rents to ask for cash. had to beg...ew. had to listen to my dad say things like "...thats what you get for being so niave," and other stuff along those lines. heh.

but i got the money, so that is all that really counts right?

life is so fuckin cool

Mon, 04 Jul 2005 03:00:04 GMT

i mean, don't get me wrong. i am about to write some horrible shit, but there is so much that is neat about it. if it were a movie, people wouldn't walk out.

i don't know how to feel.
have you ever been so torn about something that you couldn't stand it?
have you ever wanted to give someone the benifit of the doubt, but had logic kick you and say "no!"?
or better yet, have you ever wanted to hate someone but not been able to because you are worried about them?

well, avoid all of these things at all cost.

i find out today that my roommate and good friend has gone missing. the deeper i dig into where he could be, the more i realize that he has likley fucked the only people that actually care about him. and thats not many.

how many times can i selflessly help someone before i am the sucker?

i know im a sucker.

i just hope he is ok.

if he isn't, none of this matters. not the money not the house not me and my stupid emotions.

if he is, i don't want to see him again. ever.

it hurts me to think that. it really does. but he has just taken too much advantage of me. now it is over the top. now he brought my friends into it. he put their living situation on the line. two good people. and the worst part, is this is the first time in my life that financially, i can't do anything about it. tomorrow i am calling to beg my parents for money. i have never had to do this. i know they will give it to me. what hurts me about this is the fight i had with my father. i told him, not too long ago that i didn't need his help anymore, and i sure as shit didn't want it. crawling back...makes me want to cry. but it is either that, or i leave nyc this week. and trust me when i say that is not happening. i am too happy here. kids back home would not even recognize me. some would, but not most of them. i have no reasons to be angry. sure, i am usually on a less than ten dollar a day budget, with actually, few exceptions. but i mean, fuck some money. excuse my poor choice in words. bottom line, new york before pride. i need to make peace with the ole man anyway.

sure, i know only two people are going to read this, or not read this. if you make it all the way through, thanks.

i just needed to vent. i want to go out with someone, none of my city friends are available, oh well. i have a new book and a guitar, life is fine.

on the bright side i may have already found new roommates. allison and misty from memphis. this brings me cheer.

i want to hear from him so much, just to know he is ok. after that...i just don't know.

i have never hit one of my friends before, not with malace(sp?) but i am fully prepared to make an exception. besides, if he is ok, we can't be friends. not now.

well, that was fun.

thanks guys, i love you both.

..0o...

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 04:32:13 GMT

amazing how a weekend of good company can change your outlook from crap to not caring about all the crap. i love great people. thanks nicole for showin me some fun times and going to the aquabats. thanks ashley for talking to me on the phone and makin me laugh at all that crap.

you guys rule.

fuck the pumpkins, they don't know

Fri, 01 Jul 2005 19:43:32 GMT

today, well...it started off 100% optimisim. a few downers as usual, but it made me do some stuff that i like. then the bomb...now i am just fucking sad. well, not sad but certainly not in a good mood. im goin somewhere.

something to be said for...

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 19:00:14 GMT

there is something to be said for cleaning. it makes me want to work on a boat. i think i could do that for a while. i love the water. anyone want to join me on a boat? we'll see.

today was a cleaning day. tomorrow i more than likely will not sleep too much, oh well. i don't need sleep, and i don't really like it. i mean, i love sleep. but i would rather be awake. den i git to hang wit all da coo peeps. thats some white boy talk for you guys to enjoy. have fun with it. it will more than likely be a good day today. you guys have fun

much love to you guys, both of you.

land of the dead and stuff

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 04:55:26 GMT

i hope none of you guys got a chance to read that last one i posted...but just deleted. i was too drunk to be on live journal. sorry.

stupid internet

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 04:52:27 GMT

i have decided that i hate the internet. it is almost impossible to read tone and even harder to display it. i hate that everything that would make me my normal charming self in real life (and i am basing that not on my own words as i do not find charm in my own actions anymore, and i stress anymore) seems to just make me out to be an ass online. i think i may stop using it as a form of communication all together. that however, is drastic. so maybe just aim. i think the free range of conversation on aim hurts my ability to communicate the most. sarcastic by habit, aim is not a suitable palate for my choice of wording. though it has it's ups, it mostly makes me feel like an ass. when i read back over the stupid shit i had typed i usually can't help but think..."what the hell?" at least with in person or even phone conversation you can make aspeedy recovery with quick and hopefully witty remarks. aim however, is uncaring. and on top of all of that, internet communication highlights my inability to spell or use proper grammar. so when i am done looking like an ass, i get to realize that i am actually an idiot as well. woo hoo. venting is fun. thinking is dangerous.

i love the city

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 21:37:38 GMT

"so you want to go fuck on my motorcycle?"
"no, you can't really have sex in this town."
"oh. well, do you wanna just trade head or somthing?"
"no im ok. i don't think foreplay is all that fun."
"well i guess we should pick out a movie then."
"yea. hey! theres a new zombie film out!"

i mean...you can't pay for that kind of entertainment right?

i love the subway and this silly big town.

and of course my only two readers.